Adulthood...

If you haven't been there yet, or if you're there and just refuse to live there - being an adult is tough. In fact, it borderline sucks. Especially if you are caught in between those near impossible years of being a post-college grad and a parent.

Do you go for the money? What do you go for the money for? Is it for good things? Selfish things? Is God behind it or does he really (as some would have you believe) have some master plan that you're either in full-time ministry or continuing the human lifecycle.

It's a tough world out there folks.

The last few weeks have been tough. Kim has been wrestling with what a "post-buyout by a 40,000 employee company" looks like to a rising star in a compay of 60, I have struggled to balance my campus passions with my overall Greek ministry passions with my business-planning-success passions. It's just been tough. Who gives what and what gives where?

But at the heart of it God lives. And I think that Kim and I discovered tonight that at the heart of strife and at the heart of conflicht - Jesus is there.

Why? Because what Jesus and what God are truly looking for are fighters. Not what the typical Christian church has put out enmasse over the last 15 years - conformists or at least cultural comformists - but fighters.

I believe that the Christ wants a person who will fight for his faith. Who will struggle like hell for his faith, but ultimately will fight for that.

What does that look like? a great question....Probably why Dave Matthews in his famous (at leat to me) but not necesarily theoligically accurate song "The Christmas Song" (if you want to hear go to www.greekimpact.net/christmas.htm "drinkers and smokers, all soul searchers like you and me".

Whether Dave believes or doesn't he hits at the heart of the matter - all soul searchers. Are we searching for our souls and for Christs souls for us - or are we just drifting?

Personally - I've drifted for too long. And it ends now. Sure ministry can be good, life can be good, business can be good. But what about your soul? How is your soul doing today? Because all those things can provide you a good, or even great facade, but it's your sould that will ultimately be layed bare - maybe not till heaven - maybe tomorrow.

So what are you living for?

That is a questionn that I will be asking myself and students I talk to this semester both at Chapel Hill and across the region. More on that later.......

But what are you living for?